Here we are in Germany having a great time! But 6 months before that we were wondering if we were ever going to break loose of a stuckness. We planned, dreamed, talked about for over 2 years that we were going to go to back to Europe. (Jerry had been there 50 years earlier and me 30 years earlier). But Jerry ended up in the hospital with ecoli (serious case 3 weeks in the hospital) and then he had another health challenge dealing with altitude and his heart. I began to set our dream of traveling to Europe, let alone the rest of the world on the back, very back burner.
Worse than that I found myself resenting this situation while I was doing everything it took to love him and us through that year. Then, I realized what I was doing to myself, and us – I was letting more and more of the resentment chisel away my dream of going back to Europe. I was just letting it build up inside of me, right in the front of my gut. The more I tried to get rid of it, the more I resented it. Ugg. (more…)